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i don't know. Mk said i should get checked to see whether or not bipolar and i came up with of list of why i think i'm not, but it could be denial. I don't know. LIke I've picked up some bad habits again that i don;t want people to know so i won't type it. But Mk says she's worried about me, but i don't think theres anythign that she needs to worry about. aargh, i really just don't know.i just watched Gia, which was a good movie, plus it had angelina jolie in it. It's a story about like the first american supermodel named Gia Carangi. And like how she was a drug addict and how her carrerr plummeted. then in the end she dies of aids, and it is a really sad movie and everything, but i randomly busted out into tears adn i don't know why. LIke it wasn't that sad you know? but then again my mom yelled @ me so i cried for the first time in a while, maybe i just had to let things out. or maybe it could be my extreme jealousy of Angelina Jolie. I don't really know what to say, i can't clarify things any more because its not really clear in my head.This is filled with a lot of i don't knows, but thats because that's what it is. I just don't know, i don't know who the fuck i am, why the hell i'm here, what the fuck i'm feeling. I just don't know, but when will i know? is it possible to find these thigns out?Quotes from Gia:"I know life is so dissapointingHere you are, you have arrived, you are here,This is your moment. What do you have?You have pain.When you have everything, what do you have?You have nothing.When everything is right, everything is wrong.It's dissapointing, its confusing.This is life, what can you do?"You doin't have to be anybody because I would know, being somebody doesn't make you anybody anyway.""Heaven on earthBack AgainInto UnderFar in betweenThrough it,In it,And above"xoxox~LisaP.S. i really need a vacation