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you are darkredviolet#600B40Your dominant hues are red and magenta. You love doing your own thing and going on your own adventures, but there are close friends you know you just can't leave behind. You can influence others on days when you're patient, but most times you just want to go out, have fun, and do your own thing.Your saturation level is high - you get into life and have a strong personality. Everyone you meet will either love you or hate you - either way, your goal is to get them to change the world with you. You are very hard working and don't have much patience for people without your initiative.Your outlook on life is slightly darker than most people's. You try to see things for what they are and face situations honestly. You'd rather get to the point than look for what's good.the spacefem.com html color quizLG'S MOVING SOON! WHOO HOOO!

If I could choose...

If before i was born, I could sit down and talk with God and ask him to make me look a certain way, i'd tell him that I want to be Indian (like from India), I'd want nice thick hair that came down to my shoulders, i'd want light brown eyes, straight teeth with full-ish lips. I'd want a dancer's neck. I'd want maybe high B, low C cup, I'd want a nice stomach, nice abs (like Fergie), I'd want wide-ish hips, i want to have curves, but i wan't them to be proportionate. I'd want to be a size 4. I'd want to have muscular legs and arms. I'd want a proportionate ass. I'd want to be able to sing, dance, and act. I'd want to be smart. I'd want to be middle-class, i wouldn't want to be rich because i wouldn't want to be spoiled. I'd want to be happy.But i'd want flaws, nobody can be without flaws, i don't care how perfect you think the person is, they aren't. I guess my flaws would be that, like most of the Indians i know, i'd be a little hairy, but you can take care of that with a razor or wax. Another one of my flaws is that when i'm not happy, i'd cover it up and not tell people. I don't know what else i would want as a flaw, but i do want flaws.But unfortunately I can't pick how i look or how i act or whats wrong with me. but wouldn't it be awesome if i could? but i mean the nature of human beings is to complain, even if i had everything i wanted (image wise), i'd probably still complain.Lately i've been hating the nature of humans more and more, I need to be alone. I can't stand the shit that people do sometimes. People are bred to have many annoying perosnality traits, and when i have oen of those traits, and you have the same one, it just doesn't work. I need to be alone, for a short period of time, in a quiet place. Maybe Martha's Vineyard, just for a week, just to get away and think.

issues

i don't know. Mk said i should get checked to see whether or not bipolar and i came up with of list of why i think i'm not, but it could be denial. I don't know. LIke I've picked up some bad habits again that i don;t want people to know so i won't type it. But Mk says she's worried about me, but i don't think theres anythign that she needs to worry about. aargh, i really just don't know.i just watched Gia, which was a good movie, plus it had angelina jolie in it. It's a story about like the first american supermodel named Gia Carangi. And like how she was a drug addict and how her carrerr plummeted. then in the end she dies of aids, and it is a really sad movie and everything, but i randomly busted out into tears adn i don't know why. LIke it wasn't that sad you know? but then again my mom yelled @ me so i cried for the first time in a while, maybe i just had to let things out. or maybe it could be my extreme jealousy of Angelina Jolie. I don't really know what to say, i can't clarify things any more because its not really clear in my head.This is filled with a lot of i don't knows, but thats because that's what it is. I just don't know, i don't know who the fuck i am, why the hell i'm here, what the fuck i'm feeling. I just don't know, but when will i know? is it possible to find these thigns out?Quotes from Gia:"I know life is so dissapointingHere you are, you have arrived, you are here,This is your moment. What do you have?You have pain.When you have everything, what do you have?You have nothing.When everything is right, everything is wrong.It's dissapointing, its confusing.This is life, what can you do?"You doin't have to be anybody because I would know, being somebody doesn't make you anybody anyway.""Heaven on earthBack AgainInto UnderFar in betweenThrough it,In it,And above"xoxox~LisaP.S. i really need a vacation

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How to make a MochaGoddess511
Ingredients:3 parts success1 part crazyiness1 part ego
Method:Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of wisdomUsername:Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.comIt says add one part ego, I personally don't think i'm the egotistical type or successful, but they got the crazy part right...

Another survey (i stole this from MK)

I just gave myself a manicure so by typing i'm risking messing up my nails... oh well{X}Name: Lisa{X}School: Friends{X}Runin thru my veins: Blood I assume{X}Religion: Christian I guess{X}Shoe size: 8 or 8 1/2{X}Hair color: very dark brown (almos black){X}Eye color: see above{X}Style: ummm anything i can find in my size{X}Fears: Being alone-->HAVE I EVER<--{X}Cheated on someone? : uhh accidently?{X}Fallen off a bed? : hahah yeah{X}Fallen for a relative? : um no{X}Broke someone's heart? : i hope not{X}Had your heart broken? : unfortunately{X}Had a dream come true? : lot that i know of{X}Cheated on a test? : lol yeah-->DO YOU<--{X}Brush your teeth? : Yeah?{X}Like anybody? : Kinda{X}Have any piercings? : Yeah{X}Drive? : not yet{X}Drink? : not often{X}Smoke? : not really{X}Got a cellphone? : I did but it broke so i can't get a new one till july{X}Got a pager? : does anyone have a pager anymore-->FRiENDS<--{X}Who is your best? : i dunno if i have one{X}Who do I hate? : I i dunno{X}Who is the shyest? : umm Katie V when she's not around ppl she knows{X}Who laughs the most? : Allison?{X}Who do you miss the most? : Ms. Shee! hahaha{X}Who do you turn to for personal problems? : LG or MK?{X}Do you hang out with the opposite sex? : sometims{X}Do you trust your friends? : most of them{X}Are you a good friend? : hopefully{X}Can you keep a secret? : yeah. if its really like i've been sworn to secrecy-->THE LAST PERSON YOU<--{X}Hugged? : MK!{X}IMed? : Lauren or Leslie i dunno{X}Talked to on the phone? : Lauren and Leslie{X}Yelled at? : my mother{X}Fell in love with? : I dunno-->PERSONAL<-- {X}What do you want to be when you grow up? : I'm not sure, lawyer, chef, cosmotologist, actress on broadway, who knos?{X}What was the best day of your life? : I tend to have a lot of them.. but prolly when I laugh a lot.. I love those kind of days<---i agree w/ MK and the person before{X}What comes first in your life? : i dunno{X}Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? : a crush i guess{X}What are you most scared of? : being alone/suffocating/drowning{X}What do you think of when ur dreaming? : a lot of different things{X}Did you lose someone you really loved? : yeah i think so{X}How many times have you fallen deeply in love? : i dunno{X}Love your family? : lol most of them{X}Love your friends? : duh!-->FAVORITE<--{X}Movie: Finding Nemo or Girl INterrupted, i can't chose{X}Relative: i dunno{X}Sport: Lacrosse/Volleyball{X}Ice Cream Flavor: Strawberry?{X}Fruit: I love all fruit{X}Candy: Snickers{X}Holiday: any holdiay we got off of school for{X}Day of the Week: Saturday{X}Time: 8 pm, all the good shows come on{X}Color: Pink, Silver, Black? i dunno{X}Name for a Girl: Alexis, Danielle?{X}Name for a Boy: John, ummm I dunno{X}Quote: "Razors pain you, rivers are damp. Acids stain you, drugs cause cramps. Guns aren't lawful, nooses give. Gas smells awful so you might as well live"-->DO YOU<--{X}Like to give hugs? : depend on who{X}Like to give kisses? : see above{X}Like to walk in the rain? : yeah but only when i don't have to worry about my hair{X}Prefer black or blue pens? : blue{X}Like to travel? : yeah, i like to get away{X}Sleep on your side? : yeah i guess{X}Think you're attractive?: no{X}Have a goldfish? : i had one{X}Ever have the falling dream? : kinda{X}Have stuffed animals? : hehe yep-->WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT<--{X}Abortion: I think that if you don't want one, you shouldn't have one. The End. Let it go{X}Bill Clinton: he was good, i mean thers a lotta guys out there that cheat on their wives so why should he be any different. I'm not saying what he did was OK, but we put him trough more shit than was nessisary{X}Smoking: umm, cigarrettes: I don't like it, marijuana: depends on the occasion{X}Eating Disorders: umm i went through this phase where i wanted to be anorexic just to lose weight, it didn't work though. i think people with eating disorders just need a friend{X}Suicide: thats probably the way i'll die, i mean its overrated{X}Summer: its too hot{X}Tattoos: sexy on certian people{X]Piercings: Belly button and ears for me (well i'm getting my belly button periced either this summer or when im 16){X}Make-up: i don't wear it often, but i probably need to-->THIS OR THAT<--{X}Pierced nose or tongue? : nose{X}Single or taken? : single{X}MTV or BET? : MTV{X}7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? : ummm i don't watch either{X}Sugar or salt? : Sugar{X}Silver or gold? : Silver{X}Chocolate or flowers? : Chocolate{X}Color or Black-and-white photos? : black and white seem more special to me, but they're more expensive{X}M&M's or Skittles? : M and M's{X}Stay up late or sleep in? Stay up late{X}Hot or cold? : cold{X}Sun or moon? : moon{X}Left or Right? : Right{X}10 Acquaintances or one best friend? : One best friend <-- i agree{X}Mustard or ketchup? : Ketchup{X}Spring or Fall? : Spring{X}Happy or sad? : Happy{X}Wonder or amazement? : Amazement{X}McDonald's or Burger King? : McDonalds?{X}Mexican or Italian food? : ITalian{X}Lights on or off? : on{X}Candy or soda? : candy{X}Coke oR pepSi: they taste the same to me

Prank Calls

So me, lauren, and leslie just pranked ms. countess. she didn't pick up but we left her a message lol this is awesome!13 random things you like:01) Yogurt02) Hanging out with friends03) Alchohol04) Talking to someone who understands me05) Prank Calls!06) acting07) singing08) Sitting on my ass09) AIM10) Getting new shoes11) Livejournal12) Ms. Rollfinke13) Mr. Blauvelt12 movies:01) Girl, Intterupted02) 1303) CHicago04) A Chorus LIne05) Finding Nemo!06) Mean Girls07) Scary Movie (all of them)08) Lion King 1/209) L'auberge Espanol10) Save the last dance11) Center Stage12) Lord of the rings?11 good bands/artists:01) Maroon 502) Usher03) Alicia Keys04) Charles Aznavour05) T.I.07) Yin-Yang Twins08) Stevie Wonder09) Aretha Franklin10) J-Kwon11) Zap Mama10 things about you ... physically:01) Umm i have huge... assets02) I have black hair03) I have very dark brown eyes04) My gut05) ummm i don't know06) My calves07) My hair? when its permed08) My eyelashes09) My neck?10) my upper arms9 good friends:01) LG02) Alison03) Lauren04) Mk05) Drew06) Jackie07) Sydney08) Laura A.09) KTV8 favorite foods/drinks:01) Pasta02) Pizza03) Ice Cream04) Yogurt05) Candy06) Chocolate07) Italian Soda08) Root Beer Float!7 things you wear daily:01) a hoodie02) earrings in my 2nd and third hole 03) a bra04) sme sort of underwear05) shoes06) a shirt07) a camisole under my shirt but over my bra (i need all the support i can get)6 things that annoy you:01) when peoples tags are showing02) myself03) people that are conseited04) My mom05) when my internet doesn't work06) CICADAS!5 things you touch everyday:01) my hair?02) My body, not in that way03) My bed04) My keyboard05) My mouse (the computer kind, not the animal)4 shows you watch:01) Queer Eye for the Straight Guy02) Americas Next Top Model03) The Simple Life04) Spongebob3 celebrities you have a crush on:01) Angelina Jolie (lol not a crush, just an admiration)02) Tom Cruise?03) SHEMAR MOORE! ::drool::2 people on lj that you have kissed01) MK hahahahahahahaha02) LG innocently i guess.. maybe? actually probabaly not1 person you could spend the rest of your life with01) My non-existant dog, but if I had one, thats who

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see its this type of shit that makes me feel horrible about myself. Like a lot of people sit there and argue that she's ugly, which i don't understand. It just pisses me off that God made people like her and people like me adn that we don't get to choose.
someone said that i was lesbian because i'm so obsesed with her, no it's just that she's my favorite actress and like she's someone i'd like to get to know, even though that is impossible. I found all of these facts on her, and from the stuff that I've read it seems like i can really relate to her.
But its all good. I think MK is mad at me because I made some bad desicions today. I don't want to say what they are for fear that the wrong perosn will find out. I just want Mk to know that on both occasions they were impulses and I just didn't fight myself hard enough to stop it. I'm sorry babe. I love you!
Uhh yeah we're about to punk ronald in like 15 minutes. lol we convinced everyoen that he sucked roxannes toes ont he college tour lol....
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"Razors pain you, Rivers are damp. Acids stain you, Drugs cause cramps. Guns arent lawful, Nooses give. Gas smells awful, So you might as well live."That quote has been running through my mind all morning and I don't really know why considering I'm in a pretty good mood. Actually maybe it is because I had a dream that I met Angelina Jolie and we went to lunch at the Friends School cafeteria lol. But maybe that quote has been in my head because she says it in Girl Interrupted.All morning I've also had the song Burn by Usher stuck in my head also.Let it burnWhen the feelin aint the same in your bodyDon't want to, but you know, gotta let it goCuz the party aint jumpin like it used toEven though this might bruise youLet it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burnDeep down you know its best for yourself but youHate the thought of her being with someone elseBut you know that its over, I know that its throughlet it burn, let it burn, Gotta let it burnAnd its really weird because I'm so tired of hearing usher songs on the radio, but every single one of his songs that are playing right now I really like.Yeah I know that this was a random entry, but I really don't care. You are supposed to write what you think, and this is what i am thinking about right now.Uhh yeah, not much else to say, I'll probably write again later today, maybe.Hugz-n-Kissez

Time for an update!

So I've been away in Philly from Monday to Wednesday and we (meaning a buncha people) were touring colleges. I had an awesome time, like not only was it informational, but it was actually really beneficial. I figured out that i really liked Villanova College. It had a lot of features that I really enjoyed, but considering i'm only a rising sophomore it doesn't really matter yet.So I got back yesterday and pretty much just slept. I slept in today! And when I say slept in i mean till 11 o clock lol. Then at 12:00 i left to go to the harbor w/ MK! I <3 that girl (even though she was like moaning all over the place) lol we got some lunch and like window shopped and i returned this skirt that i got from Philly (we went to the 2nd largest mall in the country: the king of prussia, it was insanely big and they had like 2 of everything in 2 different buildings). So after the harbor w/ mk I came home and now i'm just sitting on my ass! Good times...P.S. I bought perfume from Vickies, it's called Warm Embrace. mmmmmmm

Hahah Gay Mouse

Am I the only one that thinks that the little mouse that is describing how i feel (creative) is homosexual?GAY PRIDE MAN! GAY PRIDE!(p.s. Simon: I don't care or anythign but i find it quite amazing how like 2 seconds after i've made an entry, you leave me a comment. Its cool but simon, are you stalking me?)

5/14... Revisited

Umm I was just thinking about how i kinda spilled my guts to allison and her mom. And I was also thinking about how i really really regret doing that. I mean I'm happy that my friend knows how i'm feeling and stuff but like sometimes i don't think that everyone needs to know that kinda stuff. I mean i pretty much told her everything and thats not something i'm happy about because i realize that when people hear about stuff that they're not used to they get a little scared. The part thats the worst for me is the fact that like i don't know what she thinks about it.Allison if you're reading this, its not meant to like offend you in any way, its just that like i just wish that you still thought i was a normal happy person, in fact i wish everyone thought that because why should i burden ur life with my problems? So as soon as you see this can you talk to me or something cuz I need to get some issues worked out...Yeah well I just watched girl interrupted again...I really do like that movie in a derranged, depressing way. It's reall deep and profound and in fact it kind of amazes me (for lack of a better word) i dunno maybe its just because of my strange obsession with Angelina Jolie (yeah i dunno what thats about but she is my favorite actress) so i love anything she plays in. But Girl, Interrupted although it is pretty disturbing is a lot like the movie 13 (which I love too) I don't really know what I'm trying to say, but like as I said before, movies like Girl, Interruped and 13 appeal to me more than movies with happy endings.

hhmph

LG's havin a BBQ tonight and i really wanna go but i don't have a ride. I can't wait till i get a car...So i'm going to this college tour on monday through wednesday, and i'll be w/ a buncha ppl from school so that'll hopefully be fun.Hey guys I need ur opinion on somethign:Ok so my mom siad i could get my belly button ring whne i turn 16 (which is may 11, 2005) or should i just get it w/o my mom knowing over the summer... I dunno if its really worth it so therefore i need help...I really feel like writing a poem right now, but i'm in a bit of a writers blockso there fore i will write a haiku!I want to go outPreferably to Laura'sToo bad that won't workamazing eh?

I stole this from Simon

-C U R R E N T-CLOTHES: tank top, mr. bubble boxers, and a tankiniMOOD: sleepy from the chlorineMUSIC: none, but i'm watching CSITASTE: paper, lol i just stuffed a peice of paper in my mouth and sub-consciously chewed it (eww i kno)MAKE-UP: noneHAIR: NASTY!!!! lol i went swimming and i took my cornrows out so now i have a fro!ANNOYANCE: the blister on my footSMELL: chlorineFAVORITE GROUP: i don't have oneBOOK YOU'RE READING: CrystalDVD IN PLAYER: I'M GONNA GIT YOU SUCKA!! (old 70's movie, really bad in fact)COLOR OF TOENAILS: french manicure but its quite chippedWORRY: i worry about a lot of things, but i can't put my finger on one-L A S T . P E R S O N...-YOU TOUCHED: myself (and no not in that way!) but before that maybe Taylor?YOU TALKED TO: my nutritionistHUGGED: wow i really dunnoYOU INSTANT MESSAGED: AllisonYOU YELLED AT: my mommyYOU KISSED: dunno- F A V O R I T E -FOOD: umm all!DRINK: smoothiesCOLOR: pink, silverALBUM: i dunnoSHOES: my corona flip-flops!CANDY: snickersANIMAL: i dunno, puppies?TV SHOW: (106 and park <-- this was simons answer which is funny cuz Simon is very white and he watches BET thats funny) but my fav. show is Queer EyeMOVIE: Finding NemoDANCE: huh?SONG: I dunnoVEGETABLE: cornFRUIT: any sort of melon (except cantelope, i mean i like it but i prefer watermelon and honeydew more)CARTOON: the proud family, fairly oddparents, the simpsons- A R E . Y O U -UNDERSTANDING: depends on the situation i guessOPEN-MINDED: i'm not close-mindedARROGANT: not that i know ofINSECURE: veryINTERESTING: lol noRANDOM: occaisonallyHUNGRY: not right now but i usually am!SMART: when i tryMOODY: hahah yeahCHILDISH: soemtimesHARD WORKING: i'm quite lazy, but when i need to get the job done i get it doneORGANIZED: when it comes to schoolHEALTHY: hell no!SHY: hahah yes! *sarcasm*DIFFICULT: yeahATTRACTIVE: *tear*BORED EASILY: sometimesMESSY: at homeTHIRSTY: yes actually i think after this is done i will get some lemonadeRESPONSIBLE: enoughOBSESSED: with Jai Rodriguez! and Angelina JolieANGRY: at the worldSAD: usuallyHAPPY: on occasionHYPER: after drinking a red bull (which i found out are really bad for you: LG THIS MEANS YOU!) TRUSTING: yeahTALKATIVE: yeahLEGAL: ONLY 6 MORE YEARS!-W H O . D O . Y O U . W A N T . T O...-KILL: Ms. ShorrSLAP: see aboveGET REALLY WASTED WITH: my girls from 5/14... good timesGET HIGH WITH: see above^LOOK LIKE: Tyra Banks (heheh MK), Angelina Jolie (yeah thats right i"m obsessed so what!)TALK TO OFFLINE: i dunnoTALK TO ONLINE: whoevers on lolMY NAME IS: LisaIN THE MORNING I AM: sleepy?ALL I NEED IS: YOUR MOM! (oh burn)LOVE IS: good if its mutualI'M AFRAID OF: tomorrowI DREAM ABOUT: well the other night i dreamt that me and allison killed Yana and then last night i dreamt i got a belly button right -W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-COKE OR PEPSI: they taste the sameFLOWERS OR CANDY: both but flowers are healthierTALL OR SHORT: both have pros and cons-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: eyesLAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: i dunnoWORST QUESTION TO ASK: i dunno? oh i get asked about my chest size oftenWHO MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: not sureWHO MAKES YOU SMILE: not sureGIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: Ms. Shorr (hey when it says funny feeling it doesn't say good feeling)WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: *wink*HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: *wink*IS EASIEST TO TALK TO: LG... we're both psyco lol I <3 ya babe-D O. Y O U .E V E R-SIT ON THE INTERNET ALL NIGHT WAITING FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TO I.M. YOU? like onceSAVE AIM CONVERSATIONS? sometimes if i've been aksed toWISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? only when i go camping, guys have it easier when they have to piss in the woodsCRY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE SAYING SOMETHING TO YOU? too many times to mention-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? nahBEEN IN LOVE? i dunnoBEEN REJECTED? :(REJECTED SOMEONE? yeahUSED SOMEONE? yeah actuallyBEEN CHEATED ON? probablyDONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? all the time and i beat myself up about it all the timeLIED? no *sarcasm*-E X T R A S-SMOKE CIGARETTES? heheCOULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT THE COMPUTER? probably notCOLOR YOUR HAIR? no but i want toEVER GET OFF THE DAMN COMPUTER? lol yeahHABLA ESPANOL? no but i'm taking it this yearHOW MANY PEEPS ARE ON UR BUDDY LIST? 189, i just downsized and i could downsize some moreDRINK ALCOHOL? heheLIKE WATCHING SUNRISES OR SUNSETS? yeah its sweetWHAT HURTS MORE, PHYSICAL OR EMOTIONAL PAIN? emotional, look you take take an asprin for a phsyical pain but when you take an asprin for emotional pain ur considered suicidal right?-N U M B E R-OF TIMES YOURE HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN: ::sigh::OF HEARTS I HAVE BROKEN: dunnoOF GUYS I'VE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): i dunno OF GIRLS I'VE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): i dunno :)OF CONTINENTS I HAVE LIVED IN: UNO!OF GOOD FRIENDS: of real friends? maybe 4-6OF CD'S THAT I OWN: well when ya say own, that means burned right?OF SCARS ON MY BODY: too manyOF THINGS IN MY PAST THAT I REGRET: too many things-Y O U R . T H O U G H T S-I KNOW: i need to wash my hairI WANT: to be happyI HAVE: $7 in my walletI WISH: i was happyI HATE: my hairI FEAR: lifeI HEAR: the TVI SEARCH: for a combI WONDER: why i think about what i regret so muchI REGRET: a lotI LOVE: my friendsI CARE: too muchI ALWAYS: beat myself upI AM NOT: who i wish i wasI DANCE: because it makes me happyI SING: a lotI CRY: (simons answer was barely ever and that makes me jealous)I DO NOT ALWAYS: tell the truth about who i am or how i feelI FIGHT: with myselfI WRITE: poetryI WIN: rarelyI LOSE: a lotI CONFUSE: myselfI LISTEN: to musicI CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: by myselfI NEED: a trip to starbucksI AM HAPPY: when i am around people like meI SHOULD HAVE: washed my hair earlier

blech

yeah so i talked to the nutritionist lady again... I mean i listened to what she had to say but it didn't really help me. I thought she would give me some meal plans and shit but she just kept talking and talking! Maybe i'm wrong for assuming that she should tell me what to do, i mean i got myself to be this weight and i guess its up to me to do the work to lose it right?oh yeah today was the BSU pool party, it wasn't that bad... even though i wasn't quite ready to be in a bathing suit (wow i just stuffed a peice of paper in my mouth)hahah wow i'm psyco!i was watching girl, interrupted today. I really do love that movie, maybe its just because i luv angelina jolie. Nah, I actually do genuinly love that movie. Its like the girls from 13, just grown up. For some reason those types of movies just... I dunno I like them better than fairy tales ya dig?I'm gonna get a membership to a gym soon, so i guess like if i start eating right and going to the gym regularly i will start my sophomore year off right and maybe i'll be happier this year.yeah right, but it doesn't hurt to wish...actually wishing can be very painful, especially when you know that wish won't come true.I don't know, but it just seems like i need to cry, then again it could be all the chlorine in my eyes, or maybe i just need to let it go...what do you think?

Umm

Well I mean now that school is finally over and I realize that summers here. Normally this would bring up smiles but then I realize, I'm not doing anything. LIke i hear about like all of these plans of my friends going away and like having fun, while i'm just gonna be stuck in MD. I dunno, its not liek have any $$ to travel anyway.LG's moving soon!So hopefully by the end of the summer i would've lost a buncha weight. Well maybe not "a buncha" but a nice amount... I'm gonna join a gym and i've been seeing a nutritionist. I dunno, i don't wanna get caught up in all of this "you gotta be skinny to be pretty" and shit, but its like i'm just so tired of being self-conscious and so unhappy. I figure maybe one improvement will help me, plus it doesn't hurt. I need to get healthier anyway.... I dunno

CICADAS!

omg i can't wait till those ugly, clear-winged, black-bodied, red-eyed demons leave. I swear they are sooo nasty and they're like freaking me out. OMG today i was on the lightrail and 1 flew in my hair (i didn't kno wat it was at first,) so i grabbed it and then threw it down. Then the lady i was sitting next 2 stood up and it was under her butt and it was like still alive...The best part is that they come out around exams. Like i'm not already stressed out enough..So today was the science exam.I dind't think it was that hard, it was just OK. but it was LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG. Like a hundred and something multiple choice, thats ridiculous!Yeah so i feel all alone and shit cuz instead of going to the harber like i kinda planned, i'm home alone sitting here in boxers and a wifebeater eating chicken... lol its cool though. I don't really care, now that i think about it, i wouldn't have wanted to be out w/ those cicadas anyway.

1 down 1 to go

Yeah so I just finished my math exam. I think it went pretty well (except i kno i fucked up on on that 1 like fair maiden question) oh well!So i've been having like all these dreams about Cicadas and liek i wake up convinced that they;'re all over me and in my room and stuff... Does anynoen know what htat means?Yeah I'm really tired, i might go take a nap...

Just thinking things over...

Yeah i just want everyone know i regret what I said and like I realize how selfish I am and I realize that that's such a horrible thing to say. And i'm really grateful for what people did and I'm just over exxagerating. I have no right to be complaining about things and once again I'm so so so so sorry...Forgive me please, I can't afford to lose friends...

Sorry

Ok to those of you who read my last entry and made me realize how much of a selfish ass I am, I'm sorry. I didn't think it was that big of a deal and I guess it just made me realize what type of person I am. I'm sorry...

I just had a revalation

So I just realized, I guess I'm not very well liked. I mean maybe its just jealousy (which I'm pretty sure it is because I get jealous of everyone) but like it seems like no one cared about my birthday. I mean i understand that people said Happy Birthday, but who knows if they meant it, it obviously didn't change anything. And its like people threw allison a party, people threw Laura a party and like Allison's mom was gonna try to get some ppl to go out for Eileens dinner, but like what did they do for me?I don't know, maybe i'm just being a bitch. I understand that Chiara baked me a cake and everything but she does that for everyone, so it doesn't really make me feel special. I mean the best present I got was from my Aunt Jan. I'm not really looking for a present, i just want to feel special, or wanted.And also, I know there are starving kids in Africa that don't have such and such and like i feel bad for them but i'm miserable too and i feel as though my feelings shouldn't be ignored.But like all the while, people are having amazing birthdays (mine was on May 11th) and I'm smiling for them yet dying on the inside. And yeah I just remembred - Me and Laura went out to dinner for my birtday but like I payed (yeah i volunteered so i guess that doesnt count) and I asked her if she wanted to go out to dinner. I mean nobody (well except my friend "Jenny") went out of their way to let me have a good birthday.But then again, am I worth it?

lets try this again...

So i was at my aunts house from yesterday afternoon to tonight and i tried to write this journal but right when i pressed update my cousins computer decides to crash.soo hmm lemme see if i remember this shit. basically it was talking about my shit weekend and how i feel so bad for a great friend of mine. lets start from the beginning:Friday night I was at CHairas getting ready to go to LG's "surprise" b-day party, and like i could tell from the beginning that i wasn't oging to have any fun (as usual) but like i forced myself to smiel and watnot, then when we got to regans house, it started off bad, reagan lied to me about not having vodka or wutever and like it wouldn't be so bad but like she told me ppl were making out, when people were obviously passing cups behind the wutever... yeah so it started out bad. then to top it all of, i'm surrounded by skinny perfect girls while i'm sittin ghtere in a skirt and a tank top feeling absolutely hideous, and then i saw louis weeks who ruined my life at Chaira's b-day party (i don't feel like talking about that). Ok so i'm kinda just sitting there feeling bad about myself when I realize LG's feeling like shit b/c of a selfish friend (no need going into that now) and that makes me hurt b/c she's probably the 1 person that knows the most about me and like we're such good friends. So like i try to see wats wrong w/ her and me allison, anna, and reg, are just sitting w/ her and it was just a really horrible time.Yeah so then I go home and then the next day i hafta go to the arena whre Justin L. wipes his sweat on my face and wonders why i'm in such a pissy mood...Uhh yeah wutever it doesn't really matter, i mean its so hard to put my actual feelings down into words, and i actually don't want to because i know if someone reads this who i don't want to read this they'll ask me questions and i'm not up for all that shit. Look remember when I said that you'll learn about the *real* me later? well you just got a taste...

I <3 CHARRO

Chaira is:You are Speed!So what if your face looks like a before photo for Proactiv?You've got the juice to stay up and screw all night long.But with skin like yours, the only action you'll get is a frenzied cleaning spree.What Drug Are You?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

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ROZ IS METROSEXUAL:

Your Guy Is A Metrosexual!Come on! Those "Queer Eye" marathons you two love weren't a tip off?And you wonder what happened to your good pair of tweezers.It is nice to be able to use your boyfriend's Clinique products when you stay over.But watch out. He may be looking for an upgrade... possibly one with a penis!Is He a Metrosexual? Take This Quiz :-)Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.BEACHblondie2704: Lisa says: Katie I hope you have fun at your familes dinner tonight :-\ Chiara says: You better come or else I'm going to blackmail you (even though we all know thats impossible) Roz says: ??^yeah this is wat we do instead of getting dressed ;-)

At Chiaras...

Hmmm right now I'm at Chiara's and I'm getting ready to go to LG's party, I guess it'll be cool... Eric won't be there. Hmmph, i don't actually dig the party scene that much, i never go home happy :(I just effing plucked my eyebrows man, oh shit i forgot how much that shit hurt.Well I guess it will be fun. NO i need to convince myself that its gonna be awesome so i don;t get in another one of "those" moods again, they always seem to pop up outta nowhere, but maybe its my fault. If i say somethigns goinna be bad, then its gonna be bad right?Dude i'm gonna be alone, i feel unattractive, and I'm not sleeping over (that outrules the chance of getting drunk)..THIS PARTY IS GONNA BE AWESOME (sarcasm)

Bored Bored Bored

Its quite funny, instead of doing work (like i should be doing) I'm sitting here quizzing Ben on various objects... hahaha Nick isn't gay and ben has some metrosexual tendencies!hehehee

Feelin like takin a quiz

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5/14

I'm just thinking about what a good time 5/14 was... hehe it was Allisons "surprise" party, long story short, we were up late, me and court got intoxicated and a certain someone was trippin on shrooms... wha a good time! (except for the ending, but as I said before, nothing depressing yet! we'll get to that later...)I don't know if she'll read this but I have a shoutout:Laura Devon Green, I love you, I'm here for you, and when the summer comes, there will be no separating us! Much love!

Bored as a mother

So I just got lifejournal because Open Diary just wasn't working for me. I don't relaly know what to put here, I shoudl put who I really am but we'll hold that off for later, i'm in too good of a mood! Yeah i'm watching american Idol, and theres some Australian guy named Guy Sebastian (great name eh?) singing, not bad actually... hmmph, i don't really know what to put, so I'll be back when I can think of something.