If I could choose...

If before i was born, I could sit down and talk with God and ask him to make me look a certain way, i'd tell him that I want to be Indian (like from India), I'd want nice thick hair that came down to my shoulders, i'd want light brown eyes, straight teeth with full-ish lips. I'd want a dancer's neck. I'd want maybe high B, low C cup, I'd want a nice stomach, nice abs (like Fergie), I'd want wide-ish hips, i want to have curves, but i wan't them to be proportionate. I'd want to be a size 4. I'd want to have muscular legs and arms. I'd want a proportionate ass. I'd want to be able to sing, dance, and act. I'd want to be smart. I'd want to be middle-class, i wouldn't want to be rich because i wouldn't want to be spoiled. I'd want to be happy.But i'd want flaws, nobody can be without flaws, i don't care how perfect you think the person is, they aren't. I guess my flaws would be that, like most of the Indians i know, i'd be a little hairy, but you can take care of that with a razor or wax. Another one of my flaws is that when i'm not happy, i'd cover it up and not tell people. I don't know what else i would want as a flaw, but i do want flaws.But unfortunately I can't pick how i look or how i act or whats wrong with me. but wouldn't it be awesome if i could? but i mean the nature of human beings is to complain, even if i had everything i wanted (image wise), i'd probably still complain.Lately i've been hating the nature of humans more and more, I need to be alone. I can't stand the shit that people do sometimes. People are bred to have many annoying perosnality traits, and when i have oen of those traits, and you have the same one, it just doesn't work. I need to be alone, for a short period of time, in a quiet place. Maybe Martha's Vineyard, just for a week, just to get away and think.