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yeah so i talked to the nutritionist lady again... I mean i listened to what she had to say but it didn't really help me. I thought she would give me some meal plans and shit but she just kept talking and talking! Maybe i'm wrong for assuming that she should tell me what to do, i mean i got myself to be this weight and i guess its up to me to do the work to lose it right?oh yeah today was the BSU pool party, it wasn't that bad... even though i wasn't quite ready to be in a bathing suit (wow i just stuffed a peice of paper in my mouth)hahah wow i'm psyco!i was watching girl, interrupted today. I really do love that movie, maybe its just because i luv angelina jolie. Nah, I actually do genuinly love that movie. Its like the girls from 13, just grown up. For some reason those types of movies just... I dunno I like them better than fairy tales ya dig?I'm gonna get a membership to a gym soon, so i guess like if i start eating right and going to the gym regularly i will start my sophomore year off right and maybe i'll be happier this year.yeah right, but it doesn't hurt to wish...actually wishing can be very painful, especially when you know that wish won't come true.I don't know, but it just seems like i need to cry, then again it could be all the chlorine in my eyes, or maybe i just need to let it go...what do you think?