lets try this again...

So i was at my aunts house from yesterday afternoon to tonight and i tried to write this journal but right when i pressed update my cousins computer decides to crash.soo hmm lemme see if i remember this shit. basically it was talking about my shit weekend and how i feel so bad for a great friend of mine. lets start from the beginning:Friday night I was at CHairas getting ready to go to LG's "surprise" b-day party, and like i could tell from the beginning that i wasn't oging to have any fun (as usual) but like i forced myself to smiel and watnot, then when we got to regans house, it started off bad, reagan lied to me about not having vodka or wutever and like it wouldn't be so bad but like she told me ppl were making out, when people were obviously passing cups behind the wutever... yeah so it started out bad. then to top it all of, i'm surrounded by skinny perfect girls while i'm sittin ghtere in a skirt and a tank top feeling absolutely hideous, and then i saw louis weeks who ruined my life at Chaira's b-day party (i don't feel like talking about that). Ok so i'm kinda just sitting there feeling bad about myself when I realize LG's feeling like shit b/c of a selfish friend (no need going into that now) and that makes me hurt b/c she's probably the 1 person that knows the most about me and like we're such good friends. So like i try to see wats wrong w/ her and me allison, anna, and reg, are just sitting w/ her and it was just a really horrible time.Yeah so then I go home and then the next day i hafta go to the arena whre Justin L. wipes his sweat on my face and wonders why i'm in such a pissy mood...Uhh yeah wutever it doesn't really matter, i mean its so hard to put my actual feelings down into words, and i actually don't want to because i know if someone reads this who i don't want to read this they'll ask me questions and i'm not up for all that shit. Look remember when I said that you'll learn about the *real* me later? well you just got a taste...